Attitude

So here is how my day started out.........

Got woke up at 3:30 AM to my 22 month old crying, wanting into my bed...hmmm, fine! So I grab her, plop her down and we both go (hopefully) back to sleep. Nope! She pukes on my pillow, sheets, me, and herself! Dinner, dessert and milk.....yeah, u can imagine! So I rinse us both off and grab the sheets, rinse them and throw them in the washer. Now I give her some Virus be gone stuff and something to take down her temp and we lay down again. Now I really want to sleep, but I know what usually happens when she's sick. Puking every 5 minutes, usually NOT into  the bucket. But- I laid down anyway, praying for mercy!  

By the way- I had my first appointment this morning to sell some candles! And I canceled it due to the sick daughter....I REALLY needed this appointment!!! 

Amazingly, she sleeps and there is no more puking! Wow!! First time for everything! Woohoo! Praise The Lord!!! *sigh* OK, now- breakfast.....

"Mom, this milk smells funny! I think it's spoiled!" "OK, well- we will just take a bike ride to the store and pick up a few things but we will have to eat something else for breakfast, I guess." Hahahaha! We eat, get the bikes ready and get the girls strapped in.....and it looks like it wants to pour rain! OK, so we went about a quarter of a mile, turned around and came back- JUST a the rain started! OK- scratch that idea!

Now what, Lord!? What do I do to make this day productive? And what was his answer? "Love yourself" Wow! He knew my thought better than I did, 'cause I was getting mad at myself for my situation, since it's my fault! And getting mad at my husband who took off and has never helped with anything. Now I have 4 kids, no support whatsoever and I am blaming! Ay yi yi! I know better! But- I AM HUMAN!! OK- it is WAY past attitude check time!!

How do I- aha! That's where the problem is! God is in control, not me. Yet, I still catch myself thinking 'how will I'......... So God reminds me that HE is our Provider, Father to the fatherless, my DADDY, my GOD!! Praise Him!! Now my attitude is adjusted, I can go on with a smile on my face- knowing HE is in charge, HE orders our steps. I love you, Lord!! Thank you!

The Lord's work

Good Morning, world! God is good, His love and mercy is new every morning. I am thankful for this, otherwise I'd never stand a chance of getting to see Him face to face someday.

This morning God has laid on my heart to pray for a dear Lady who just lost her husband this past week. This morning she will be getting ready for church without her dear husband. They were so in love and had a wonderful relationship. He was a wonderful Daddy to their 4 children. My heart aches for her and I weep with the pain she must be feeling. I'd rather go through it than to know someone else is and I can't take it from them. Sometimes it feels like a curse to have this big heart that feels everyone else's pain, but it is a blessing, it means I can empathize with others. I keep praying for her but God has not lifted the burden yet- He says I am to bear some of her burden for her and I will gladly do this. I've been there already. I came through some of my darkest days and can now see a small glimpse of light and Hope. Hope that I could not see 2 yrs ago. Hope that I couldn't see even 1 yr ago.

Yesterday I almost felt 'normal' again. I am back in business! Yeah, baby! God loves me and has plans to prosper me, not to harm me. Problem is, I've tried to take myself down too many times. The time has come to change the direction of my life. With God all things are possible!
Here are some books I love, if you'd like to read- have at it! They changed my life!  

BLESSINGS

OK, so I am seriously just turning on my computer and logging in so I can write this. I feel like I am the most BLESSED lady on the planet tonight! Someone dropped off 2 big boxes of baby clothes on my doorstep while I was gone over the weekend! And I will probably not need to get any other clothes for my baby ever again. Hopefully I can pass Kaylee's clothes down to her sister. :)

There was an answer to prayer in one of these boxes! I have been wanting to go walking but haven't had a double stroller or a baby carrier to use, and there was a very nice baby carrier in there! Praise the Lord, I am so blessed! I was crying when I pulled it out! My Father in Heaven knows what we have need of and He provides in amazing ways. It wasn't in my time frame, but in His. I thought I HAD to have something a long time ago already, but wasn't able to get anything. I decided I would be patient, and I think it was worth it! My heart is seriously overflowing tonight. God is SOOOO GOOD!!! Yes, even when things are NOT going my way, He is still good. :)

A new life!

   I haven't written in a while since I've been busy trying to adjust to life with a newborn in the house. :) It's really been wonderful. She is such a good baby! She's beautiful and healthy, already gaining and changing her looks. Time goes so swiftly and I want to treasure every moment with her. The boys enjoy having her to hold sometimes too, which is cute to watch. They are really good big brothers. Kaylee always asks for Lyndon when he's not here. As soon as she sees him, she wants him to hold her. It does a mother's heart good to see the kids get along. I have never been close to the only brother I have, so I want my kids to appreciate each other.  Here is a little pic of my newest princess. She is a good sleeper and is actually asleep right now, as I should be also! But I wanted to share a little of my Blessing with you. :)

  I don't really have a whole lot to say tonight, just want to wish every mom a Happy Mother's Day on Sunday. God's richest blessings are in our job of mothering, I believe! Be blessed!!

My new Princess

I am home again, after giving birth on Sunday night at 8 PM to a beautiful baby girl named Cassandra Rose. She weighed in at 6 lbs and 15 oz and was 20 inches long. She has a head full of straight black hair and dark eyes. She's a happy baby and sleeps well, eating when she's hungry. Which isn't that often, I might add! :) I am having a tough time sitting on this chair so I'm not going to be writing much for a while. I wish you all well!

Blessings to all!!

Lori

Elijah the little chef :)

I am still waiting for this baby to make an appearance, so am taking care of things and getting everything ready. The house is straightened up, there's food in the refrigerator, even though I'd like to make some things yet today. But I've got to tell you about this little budding chef I have in my house!

Elijah enjoys cooking occasionally and this morning was wanting to make something for me. So when I asked what he wanted to do, it didn't sound very appealing. But- being the mom who never wants to squelch the enthusiasm of my child, I said OK. And boy, was I glad I did! We cut up an avocado into a bowl, put the juice from my salsa I made last night over the top since it was lime juice and that was what he wanted to put on top, we sprinkled some garlic powder on top of that, put a few slices into a tortilla and wrapped it up and ate it! Mm, mm, mm!! Boy oh boy was it delish!  Yummy for my tummy! So he tells me that the neighbors had this one time when he was over there playing with their son and that's where he learned it. They always feed him, it seems. They are good neighbors. And Hispanic at that, so I've gotten a few wonderful recipes from her! They have helped me start my car when I left the lights on and the battery died, lol! The husband has come over here and helped me with my computer, and I can't even remember what else!

 And now, Elijah is telling me to let everyone know that he is making paper guns to sell. He is quite the little entrepreneur too! He made a few of these guns by watching some youtube videos and has now sold some to the neighborhood kids. Which I happen to find funny, but hey- it works! He has sold a few things he has made before.

So anyway- here I am, just waiting, waiting, waiting! What can I do to speed things up? Maybe a long walk? Oh yeah, the midwife said I need to be eating every 2-3 hours and drinking plenty of water. And now it's ben 3 hours since I ate- oops. Guess I need to go eat.

Later, my amigas!

Ceviche and Pics of my princess :)

I just had to share my little baby doll with you all! Today I made something new and she actually LIKED it! OK, you must understand, she got her father's taste-buds and is very picky! But this is a picture of her enjoying her new love, yay! I made 'ceviche' today, a Mexican dish with cilantro, shrimp, lime and lemon juice,onion, ketchup, avocado and Orange Fanta pop. Yes I know it sounds like quite the strange concoction, but let me tell you it is DELICIOUS!! Mmmm, Mmmm, mmm I love it! OK, mine did not turn out quite the way it was when I first tasted the neighbor's, but it was still really good. It's to be eaten with crackers and so my little Kaylee was dipping away and enjoying herself. Of course, this was after I tried to give her a taste and she barely stuck her tongue out to taste it, afraid she might not like it. Seriously, I wish I could show you what she does, it is so funny! She always has to make sure she likes it before you can get any into her mouth! Just a nibble- mousy bite if even that much, lol! She lights up my life!

Oh, and there's a picture of my daughter and I that was taken by a friend of mine today. She does a wonderful job, I am so in awe!  You can check out www.kissphotography.net. She really loves what she does and it shows!! I am thinking about letting her do pics of the baby when he or she finally makes an appearance. :) And no, no baby yet! I am sitting here having some good contractions though! Hmm, will it go anywhere? Time will tell, right? I have had so many BH contractions that I think I have given up hope. I'll just be pg forever, lol!

OK, OK I need to get to bed right now as I haven't been sleeping too well and we all know I need my rest and strength to have this baby. And yes I know it won't be forever, lol!

So I will say Good Night all my friends- Oh, by the way- who all's going to Starbucks for a free coffee tomorrow? ME, ME, ME, ME!!

God Bless!
Lori