Attitude

So here is how my day started out.........

Got woke up at 3:30 AM to my 22 month old crying, wanting into my bed...hmmm, fine! So I grab her, plop her down and we both go (hopefully) back to sleep. Nope! She pukes on my pillow, sheets, me, and herself! Dinner, dessert and milk.....yeah, u can imagine! So I rinse us both off and grab the sheets, rinse them and throw them in the washer. Now I give her some Virus be gone stuff and something to take down her temp and we lay down again. Now I really want to sleep, but I know what usually happens when she's sick. Puking every 5 minutes, usually NOT into  the bucket. But- I laid down anyway, praying for mercy!  

By the way- I had my first appointment this morning to sell some candles! And I canceled it due to the sick daughter....I REALLY needed this appointment!!! 

Amazingly, she sleeps and there is no more puking! Wow!! First time for everything! Woohoo! Praise The Lord!!! *sigh* OK, now- breakfast.....

"Mom, this milk smells funny! I think it's spoiled!" "OK, well- we will just take a bike ride to the store and pick up a few things but we will have to eat something else for breakfast, I guess." Hahahaha! We eat, get the bikes ready and get the girls strapped in.....and it looks like it wants to pour rain! OK, so we went about a quarter of a mile, turned around and came back- JUST a the rain started! OK- scratch that idea!

Now what, Lord!? What do I do to make this day productive? And what was his answer? "Love yourself" Wow! He knew my thought better than I did, 'cause I was getting mad at myself for my situation, since it's my fault! And getting mad at my husband who took off and has never helped with anything. Now I have 4 kids, no support whatsoever and I am blaming! Ay yi yi! I know better! But- I AM HUMAN!! OK- it is WAY past attitude check time!!

How do I- aha! That's where the problem is! God is in control, not me. Yet, I still catch myself thinking 'how will I'......... So God reminds me that HE is our Provider, Father to the fatherless, my DADDY, my GOD!! Praise Him!! Now my attitude is adjusted, I can go on with a smile on my face- knowing HE is in charge, HE orders our steps. I love you, Lord!! Thank you!