This too shall pass?!

OK, so this blogging thing is not quite what I expected, but it is fun! It's just different! Wondering if anyone even reads anything I type, or if I will ever make a difference for anyone. I know that we all have so much to give and so much that we know, it's just a matter of finding the right person to share it with. Today I was reading my Bible and found the verse in Luke where God basically told me---trust me and stop wondering how you will live or eat tomorrow-- I take care of the lilies and they don't even work or try to take care of themselves. I know, I know- I just need to be reminded some days, I guess. Thank God that He doesn't give me what I deserve, but rather extends His Grace to me every day. If only we will have the faith of a mustard seed, we can tell the mountains to move and they must obey. Of course, that doesn't mean we will see them physically move immediately, but rather that God can and will show us how to move that mountain so we can go forward. I used to think it meant the mountain should automatically move and if it didn't, then I didn't have any faith. Wow, thankfully I learned better, but it took me a long time!! Lately I wonder just where my faith is.


I feel lost, needing someone to tell me what direction to go. Yet- when I did have that, they weren't always correct, either! God has shown me His awesomeness and how He can direct my paths perfectly, yet I don't see it happening right now- all I hear is WAIT, WAIT!! I am so frustrated! WAIT for what?! I want to do something, contribute something to life. I guess it's as my friend said this morning- "I grew a baby today, what'd you do?" It is a wonderful thing, just some days doesn't feel so wonderful. I'm moody every day, bloated, with fat toes that hurt, clothes that aren't fitting anymore, can't sleep after I wake up the first time to go pee. Just frustrated!! This too shall pass, I know this, yet I cry for the frustration. How long must I wait? What am I waiting for? What!?